This past weekend, guilt was my best friend. we snuggled up together & gathered my thoughts & figured out the amazing ways that i could feel poorly about every decision that i made. we talked about things that i might say, things, i did say, things i might do, things i might not, we decided that there was guilt to be had in everything. guilt made sure that i knew he was my ONLY friend & reassured me that others would not be close or ever want to be.
Guilt is a very selfish friend.
Allowing this friend into my life makes me miserable, but more importantly, he makes everyone else miserable, chases everyone away, causes arguments, alienates family and friends, and a host of other self-destructive issues that come along with his friendship.
Sometimes i wonder if guilt is a better friend because i allow him more access than the God that i love so much. Guilt makes sure that i know how little we deserve a relationship with the God who created us. Guilt makes sure to keep me alone so that others don’t try to pull me out of his closeness. Guilt makes sure that the only friends that are allowed in are self-loathing, hate, pity, and regret.
Like little minions, they surround the mind. Taunting. Laughing. Reveling in the brokenness of it all.
The only solution, the only way to fight this battle, is to turn to the One. Take the help that He offers. Take up the armour that He offers freely and FIGHT. Actively speak the words of life. Demand that guilt return to the pit from which he arose and take back the battlefield. Quit making guilt comfortable and demand that he leave the property. He will keep trying to return, so this battle will take a lifetime. But the One who battles with you and for you will never lose strength, never lose heart, never lose faith, never lose hope. He is the One who comes to break the chains that bind your mind and tear down the walls of steel and brick to free you from hate, sin, regret and give you hope & life more abundantly.
Therefore, strengthen the hands that are weak and the knees that are feeble, and make straight paths for your feet, so that the limb which is lame may not be put out of joint, but rather be healed.
Pursue peace with all men, and the sanctification without which no one will see the Lord. See to it that no one comes short of the grace of God; that no root of bitterness springing up causes trouble, and by it many be defiled. ~Hebrews 12:12-15
Today i pray for those whose minds are riddled with guilt, who are plagued by regret, & those that cannot break free on their own. i pray that God would free their minds and release their burdens and give them life and light in the battle. i pray they would have the strength to put on the whole armor and to speak the words out loud in their own lives and in the lives of others.
i was feeling depressed about things that have happened.
forgetting all the miracles. the blessings. the past. the present.
TRUTH: living in the present. at peace. satisfied. not worrying. confident.Philippians 4:6NLT “Don’t worry about anything. Instead, pray about EVERYTHING. Tell God what you need & THANK HIM for ALL He’s done!”
Psalm 37 NLT
Don’t worry about the wicked or envy those who do wrong.
For like grass, they soon fade away. Like spring flowers, they soon wither.
Trust in the Lord & do good.
Then you will live safely in the land & prosper.
Take delight in the Lord & He will give you your hearts desires.
Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust Him & He will help you.
He will make your innocence radiate like the dawn & the justice of your cause will shine like the noonday sun.
Be still in the presence of the Lord & wait patiently for Him to act.
Don’t worry about evil people who prosper or fret about their wicked schemes.
Stop being angry! Turn from your rage!
Do not lose your temper – it only leads to harm.
For the wicked will be destroyed
but those who trust in the Lord will possess the land…
Today i prayed for those…
Psalm 22:9-10Yet You brought me safely from my mother’s womb and led me to trust You at my mother’s breast. I was thrust into Your arms at my birth. You have been my God from the moment I was born.
This verse. This morning. I wonder…NLT: “Led me to trust You” & “Thrust into Your arms”. NIV: “Made me trust You” & “Cast on You” NASB: “Made me trust” & “Upon You I was cast” HCSB: “Making me secure” & “Given over to You” KJV: “Make me hope” & “Cast upon Thee”
Those words. Trust. Secure. Hope. Do you feel them? There is action and life and love that can only be gotten from being cast upon, given over to, thrust into the arms of the One. Only One. He will lead you. He will cause trust, security, hope, in your life. But only if you cast your life upon Him.
Today i pray for those who are struggling to let go and trust. those who do not feel secure. those who cannot find hope. today i pray that the One who has brought us forth will lead them to a place of desire and show His lovingkindness in abundance.
the day between
the day of contemplation
the day to look
on the past & reconcile
the day of realization
my sin put my God
on a cross
in order that
we could be together
we could have life
L I V E
do not throw it away
d o n o t p u t i t o n a s h e l f
do not hide this gift
as we share it
it is living
it is breathing
from a living breathing God
He loved us first
F I R S T
while we were lost
while we were sinning
so we could
L O V E